Many of my brides and friends will often ask, “do I really need a second shooter?” Essentially, the answer is no, but there are many benefits to having a second shooter.
Drew & Savanah couldn’t be any sweeter. Drew is an Air Force pilot and Savanah is an Air Force Public Affairs officer.
I’m sharing all of my thoughts and feelings regarding my pregnancy, birth, and postpartum.
I have a confession to make. I’ve written this blogpost probably 3-4 times. I’ve planned to make it public numerous occasions and somehow I always seem to delete the whole thing entirely. The truth is it’s hard to be vulnerable with the world. It’s difficult to share our intimate thoughts, especially in a world of social media where many of us seem to portray such perfect lives with our cookie cutter feeds. We all have ugly parts even if we don’t want to admit it, but sometimes we can conquer those valleys. There’s also the thought that someone young like myself couldn’t offer wisdom or insight due to lack of life experience. Do I think I know everything? Of course not. My purpose in writing this blogpost isn’t to boast or make others feel bad, instead I’m sharing my thoughts in hopes that there is just one person out there going through the same thing and just needs to hear that they’re not alone.
So, here’s the deal. We moved to Michigan in February. I had all of these expectations about how it was going to be and the relationships I would form—you name it and I had dreamed it up in my head. There’s nothing wrong with dreaming, believe me. My problem was I exhorted my expectations onto everyone and everything we did. When it didn’t live up to my expectations, I would grow bitter. Why weren’t things the way I thought they’d be? Why was it that everyone around me seemed to be enjoying this new adventure, but me? I grew weary waiting for things to just magically become what I had imagined. I knew something had to change. I sought out biblical sermons regarding expectations. I needed more insight. I ended up finding a series called, “The Expectation Gap” from Elevation Church. As I sat and listened to that first sermon, I was beside myself. I kept blaming others for my lack of feeling fulfilled in a new place. I blamed them for my lack of feeling purposeful. It wasn’t until Steven Furtick’s last point that I had the lightbulb moment. He said this, “don’t let what you expected keep you from what God wants you to experience.” Were my expectations really holding me back from what God truly wanted me to experience during my time in Michigan? Absolutely, as I took a moment to reflect, I realized all that God had done for me while in Michigan. He took my business and made it flourish. Not every photographer can say they relocated 700 miles and had a more profitable year. That’s something to celebrate—but instead I was groaning because we didn’t get invited to dinner or I didn’t have anyone text me to ask how my day was going. Ya’ll how petty does that sound? I made little things such big things simply because of my expectations. I also ignored all of the great things God was doing in John’s life. I should’ve been experiencing all of those great milestones with John rather than complaining about the things I expected. You see, God doesn’t make mistakes. His promises are always good and His plans are always purposeful. Through this little season of my life I’ve really learned to “be still.” As much as it pains me to be patient, God has continually shown me that His ways are best. Things may not always go as I expect, but God always reveals the greatest outcome for my life.
When we stop getting frustrated because of our expectations of others, we can fulfill God’s expectations of ourselves. Let me be the first to also say that I still struggle with expectations, but I remind myself daily that God is bigger. When I let go and let God, those are my greatest days. When I concern myself with meeting God’s expectations, my life is more meaningful. Don’t let your struggles be buried inside you. I pray that God gives each person reading this the peace they need for whatever obstacle they are facing right now.